My journey began in 1963 on the 16th of December, and in the fifty-two years of my life it has been filled with love and blessings beyond measure. There were many struggles, trials and sufferings and because of that I often failed to see those blessings, but looking back I’ve seen the footprints of Christ. He has carried me and guided me, showing me His imprint and presence in every phase of my life.
He has placed many people in my life to assist me in my journey who have supported me in every challenge that came my way, who encouraged my efforts and wouldn’t allow me to give up! They were very instrumental in helping me to become the person I am today and I’m forever grateful for the lessons they taught me and the encouragement they gave me. My parents planted the foundation on which the others built upon, and they put down a good many more blocks that I would build my life on.
Psalm 127:3 says that children are a blessing and reward, (paraphrase, mine). In the New king James it renders the word ” reward” for “heritage!” The implication of that word in my understanding is that children are the legacy we leave behind when we leave this world. We pass on morals and standards for living. We pass on knowledge, and gifts of talents and abilities; while they learn about their own uniqueness as individuals. And for most every parent we pour into our children faith, hope and love that they would continue to pass onto their children some day. These are the things that my parents did for me, but in the beginning of my life they learned they may not have the chance to do that.
I was born with Spina Bifida. The simplest way to explain it is that my spine did not form all the way as it should have, and it left me paralyzed from the waist down. The prognosis then was considered dire to say the least, and the doctor who delivered me told my parents that, in their medical experience I would not live to be much older than three months old.
All of their hopes and dreams were dashed! All that time wondering and trying to figure out why the couldn’t get pregnant, then getting that issue resolved to only find out they wouldn’t be able to keep her was soon lost. They experienced the joy of giving life, one they thought they would raise and watch grow…everything was for nothing, nothing but grief and disappointment. How could a loving God do this much less allow it!? I’m sure that in that moment as they had time to absorb what they had learned, the thought of having to face grief head on and to bury someone they already loved so deeply, surely had to crush their souls in a way they never thought it could.
But little did they know at the time God had other plans! It wouldn’t end in hopelessness and despair! God would carry them and guide them just as he has done for me, and continues to do even now. God would bless them even in the hardest of times and though it would take some time, they would look back and see His presence loving them in every phase and journey!
Despite all of life’s deepest hurts and disappointments God has blessed us all beyond our wildest imaginations. Looking back I have learned that every life has significance and value, and purpose! He is a good God who does all thing well, and makes everything in His time perfect and useful. He is the God I serve!
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